If you are capable of seeing Hashem's glory while walking through the night, darkness will have no power over you. I have read some powerful testimonies, many years ago, from people who have been taken to the dirtiest, the smelliest and the ugliest places, including prisons-seemingly alone, abandoned by the world, but who spoke of the glory of the Almighty trancending these places.
A walk with Hashem is no fairy tale; sometimes you will know places of darkness and you will feel that you are left on your own ( according to the world's standards).
When you are facing such situations, there are several points to remember:
-In Sefer Bereshit, Genesis, you are reminded: "וַיְהִי-עֶרֶב וַיְהִי-בֹקֶר, יוֹם אֶחָד"
"vayehi erev, vayehi boker, yom echad" " and there was an evening, and there was a morning, day number one". Each of your days begins in darkness. You can either grow in desperation or light your candles and invite the Lord to share this time with you. I mean, HOW you are going through your time of darkness depends on you. Most people seem to ignore that they DO have a choice.
You can go through grief, hopelessness and desperation all alone or you can weep on the Lord's shoulder. Yeshua will always comfort you when you are experiencing pain, especially the type of suffering that is invisible to others.
But there is much more you can learn from this part of Genesis. When daylight emerges again, you are experiencing like a resurrection from death. French rabbi Josy Eisenberg used to teach that the word "boker", day, when its letters are inverted, also contains the root "kever", "tomb", "sepulcher".
On each venture of darkness, when times are getting better, when light is made visible again, you will experience a form of Resurrection.
Have you ever thought, that when you are waking up ( what most people are taking for granted), that you are emerging from death and coming back to life?
Therefore gratitude should accompany us with each day the Almighty makes.
-Psalm 23 contains an invaluable teaching:
"gam ki eleich begei tsalmavet, lo ira ra, ki ata immadi"
"גַּם כִּי-אֵלֵךְ בְּגֵיא צַלְמָוֶת, לֹא-אִירָא רָע-- כִּי-אַתָּה עִמָּדִי"
Even though I walk through the valley of shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for YOU ARE WITH ME.
Do not overlook Yeshua's friendship when facing tremendous difficulties or pain of any kind. Should the whole world abandon you, Yeshua would still be there for you.
Yeshua wants your total trust at all times.
You may feel the pain. You may also feel desperate at times, but what matters is your attitude during the test. Job's (Iob in Hebrew) book has been written to inspire generations of believers, for Job was a Tsaddik who remained faithful to the Lord despite his losses and physical pain. Note that he kept praising His Name.
You may also feel that you are not capable of praise while going through acute pain. That's ok. Your cries in front of Him are prayers too. He sees, understands, and wipes away tears.
-Try to sing your pain away through Psalms. It will bring you back into a spirit of joy and praise. Consider this time of darkness as a proper time to develop more intimacy with your Messiah. Speak to Him even more; be honest. Also confess your transgressions and work on amending your ways, always.
Remember that this storm too will pass. Trust the Lord at all times and you will be victorious over darkness. Have the eyes to discern figments of light during the night.
You are not alone.
" אָנֹכִי, אֵרֵד עִמְּךָ"
"I myself will descend with you" Genesis 46:4 "Anochi ered immecha"
Should you have to descend, the Almighty would descend WITH you.
Copyright© by Isabelle Esling