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CHAPTER
1: THE REBIRTH
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Just
before
They had
tried me without a trial; they had already condemned me before I had been
judged. Their sentence was ready before I could even open my mouth and defend
myself. I was getting closer to true human nature. I had done my best. I was
exhausted, mentally and physically. I was longing for new horizons. The pain
was immense. Damage had been done. I needed restoration like never before.
During one
second, I had identified myself with the Suffering Messiah, and then I
completely forgot about it. The fatigue was taking over. I was longing for
rest, yet they were harassing me till the end.
I had set
big hopes on something that had shown deceitful to me. I was in the process of
learning a new life lesson. First, I had to learn how to take care of my body
again. Second, I had to strengthen my mind, once again, because it had been
attacked tremendously.
Meeting
Yeshua
N.B: The
“Face” in the first chapter, refers to the Face of the Shroud
I didn’t
expect to meet you. My mind was kilometers away from you. I was surfing on the
internet. You showed up in some way. As I glanced at your Face, tears started
running from my eyes, abundantly, like clear water. I think I wept for hours,
just staring at your Face. Strangely, as I wept there was no pain inside of my
heart.
My tears
started clearing up and cleaning my soul. A powerful work of redemption was
happening right now. You didn’t say anything. You were listening to my words
with a sustained attention.
As I
stopped weeping, all my surroundings became very calm. I looked at my face in
the mirror. It reflected peace. My eyes weren’t red at all, nor did they hurt.
I realized that you had just consoled me.
Within a
few hours, you have wiped away burdens of shame and humiliation that kept me
enslaved for numerous years.
Things that
I had kept buried deep inside resurfaced, but only to be destroyed by the
burning fire of your Spirit.
I was
experiencing a day of mercy. You touched my soul.
The day
after you took me to another silent place outside where I rested for a while.
I kept
silent. Unexpectedly, you started speaking to me. People had always spoken
about you in my childhood. Quantities of images and stories had been displayed
to me. I had always searched for you. I had a precise idea about the type of
person you should be.
As you
started speaking to me, I realized I was totally wrong. I didn’t know you at
all. You were so different from all I could imagine.
Your
beautiful, manly voice was a combination of authority and tenderness. I was so
amazed to hear you, Yeshua. Or was I only imagining all this?
I could not
ignore the way you spoke to me, because your voice was taking the entire place
in my mind. I simply could not ignore it.
You came
with a precise request to me: would I accept you as my personal Savior?
Your
question left only two options to me: yes or no-there was no place for a
comfortable “in between”.
I also knew
I had to be ready to bear the consequences of my choice.
It wasn’t
that easy to handle your request actually. I knew, deep inside my heart, that I
loved you. But did I love you enough? Was I ready? What prevented me from
saying yes?
I exposed
you my fears. I told you that I was afraid of what you could ask me in return.
It was so
silent all around. Would you answer me, Yeshua?
When I
heard your answer, I was moved to tears. You were not asking me for anything in
return, you only wanted me to invite you into my life.
Without
further hesitation I said yes.
I left the
bank I was sitting on. As I started walking, I felt your hand holding mine. You
were so real, so concrete I simply could not ignore you.
I held your
hand tightly, like a small child. I realized that I had been missing you all my
life. I realized that I had just been saved. You were here, and you loved me
tremendously, challenging the frontiers of my imagination.
The world
suddenly expanded and my heart was filled with an unknown joy, the joy of the
Spirit.
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